Is there something wrong with me?

Do you ever find yourself wondering why…

“Why am I like this?”

“Why can’t I handle life as well as other people can?”

“Why do I need more rest, sleep or downtime than other people?”

“Why am I so affected by other people’s moods?”

It looks to me like when we are wondering these sorts of things (as I definitely have), there are a few places it can be really helpful to look.

1. Our experience is thought-created

You’ve probably heard that we don’t see the world as it is, we see it as we are. I take that even further, and say that we create the world for ourselves according to what we believe. If conditioning has led us to believe things like “life is hard”, “I need to sort out other people’s problems to be loved” or “there’s something wrong with me”, that is reflected back to us in the experience we create. This is what it is to be human.

2. For some of us, we just sense things deeply.

We may identify as highly sensitive and find a lot of relief in watching documentaries like “Sensitive”. We see things that others don’t notice. We feel, perhaps even smell (sounds crazy but I know plenty people who say this!), people’s moods. For whatever reason, we just take in more than most people. This can be tiring and explain why we need more downtime and rest.

3. We make meaning about ourselves (that isn’t true)

Because of number 1, those of us who identify with number 2 are likely to have made meaning out of our observation that there is something different about us. Carrying the belief that there is something wrong with us, when we don’t know that our reality is thought created, takes its toll, like a bag of rocks we are dragging around, and adds to how tiring we might find life.

4. Hiding ourselves from the world is exhausting

Perhaps those of us who identify with number 2 are just more tuned in to our intuitive capacities. Everyone has them, but we may have been taught (implicitly as well as explicitly) to close off from them. This has, for some of our ancestors, literally been a matter of life or death. We can try to keep that part of ourselves closed off, but it’s hard work, like holding a ball under water, and that takes its toll. In fact, it’s exhausting!

This is a “learning edge” for me right now, which is why I love writing about it, and I’m likely to share more about it. Make sure you don’t miss out by signing up for my free weekly newsletter here.

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